An Attitude of Solitude

I wonder what kind of person I am... Do I judge others?  Do I throw things in people's face?  Do I save what was done today, to bring up tomorrow? 

I feel like I'm a reasonable ear, yet there are few willing to listen.  The mention of anything is a complaint.  The discussion of other topics is an obsession.  I have problems, so I'm told... BUT don't we all! 

I don't think I've felt more alone in my life.  To end such a feeling, I vow to be my own best friend.  I vow to take it easy on myself.  I vow to work on the things that do not work.  I don't need to make a public service announcement.  I will act and execute, silently.

All of a sudden, today, my life has changed.  A sweet quiet life - that's what I now prefer, at least for this period in my life.  I feel like I'm going through a rough patch and while there are many I've lent a shoulder, I feel like I can barely get the stretch of a hand. 

This isn't a pity party.  Life goes on. Currently, moving along, a lot differently! 

Live Life, Purposefully!

It'd be a lie to say I had it altogether.  As if my life is exactly how I imagined.  It'd be a lie to say I am not blessed beyond measure.  As if my life hasn't been full of pleasantries and treasure.  I am thankful for the life that I have and the desire, will and determination to discover this purpose that's bigger than thy self.

As I turn back the covers and cozy into tonight's assignment, I can't deny the new sense of hope that has come over me.  There is a person, there are people who believe in me.  There are people that see greatness. There are people willing to lend a helping hand to get me where I need to go.  Yet, in the midst of the highs, indeed I hit a major low today.

As the morning doesn't have power to dictate the night, I will sign off from consciousness with the notion that I'm tapping into something bigger than me.  It's the me that I often don't physically see.  Tonight I'm willing to open my eyes and ignite my heart.  If one feels lost, go back to basics and get a new start. 

Today is the first day of the rest of my life and I want to spend it with you.  You being ME!  Welcome the person I was designed to be.

THANK YOU EBONNI!!!

You Are Your Feelings

When we feel alone, we are alone.  I never knew the power of thoughts like I do on this very day.  Nothing about my life has changed, other than my desire to act in love.  That love has ignited fires in the hearts of those around me and today I've experienced an out pour of what I've allowed to seep into the atmosphere. 

From Facebook messages to tweets, friends chose today to share their love and affection.  While we often know this love exists, to actually feel it internally, you're opening up to a world of possibilities.  The moments wasted on the bad can be downsized to breathe life into the good. 

A single thought can change your day.  Open your heart and allow love to stay.  You are your feelings...!  

Credentials Matter...!

Credentials matter!  But what if you didn't attend the best school?  What if you don't work for the best company?  What if you don't have the best title?  What if you are the best, without the best credentials to match?

I ask these questions as I sit in an ongoing debate about what's next... What step should I take to further my career?  My life?  I'm currently visiting mediocrity.  Yet, the thought of not knowing exactly what to choose, has left me standing where I am today.

I have no desire to give up.  Yet I dream of giving up all I have to gain all I am.  New York City, the melting pot, now feels like the temps are boiling at an all time high and I'm stuck to the side of the cookware.  I'm in and out of the mix.  I'm here with prayers of being far away.  I'm near, but far.  I'm driving without direction, nor a car.

Something new, please come true.  I cannot imagine feeling what I feel beyond this year. A new space, expanded life and a promising career.  God if this were my only way of communication, would you please accept this as my prayer?  Talk to me!