You Are Your Feelings

When we feel alone, we are alone.  I never knew the power of thoughts like I do on this very day.  Nothing about my life has changed, other than my desire to act in love.  That love has ignited fires in the hearts of those around me and today I've experienced an out pour of what I've allowed to seep into the atmosphere. 

From Facebook messages to tweets, friends chose today to share their love and affection.  While we often know this love exists, to actually feel it internally, you're opening up to a world of possibilities.  The moments wasted on the bad can be downsized to breathe life into the good. 

A single thought can change your day.  Open your heart and allow love to stay.  You are your feelings...!  

Credentials Matter...!

Credentials matter!  But what if you didn't attend the best school?  What if you don't work for the best company?  What if you don't have the best title?  What if you are the best, without the best credentials to match?

I ask these questions as I sit in an ongoing debate about what's next... What step should I take to further my career?  My life?  I'm currently visiting mediocrity.  Yet, the thought of not knowing exactly what to choose, has left me standing where I am today.

I have no desire to give up.  Yet I dream of giving up all I have to gain all I am.  New York City, the melting pot, now feels like the temps are boiling at an all time high and I'm stuck to the side of the cookware.  I'm in and out of the mix.  I'm here with prayers of being far away.  I'm near, but far.  I'm driving without direction, nor a car.

Something new, please come true.  I cannot imagine feeling what I feel beyond this year. A new space, expanded life and a promising career.  God if this were my only way of communication, would you please accept this as my prayer?  Talk to me!

One Love. One Life. You Won't Get it Twice!

At some point we must all take credit for where we are and why we are.  It is no longer OK to just say, well this is the way I am or these are the circumstances because of X, Y, Z.  I say this as I sit in the chair that has held my weight for 3+ years...

Clearly, I've overstayed my welcome.  I've worn out my guest pass.  I've gone too far and have fallen too short.  Happiness has fled.  I'm living, yet I'm dead...

So what do you do when enough is enough?  Is there a dollar amount that should keep you where you are, even if you know you've gone too far?  Should you succumb to egotistical and societal demands? 

I say get up and get out.  Start something new.  Do what you want to do!  The time is now, even if you're unsure how.  Get out and get a hold on your life - there's only one to live! 

Love More, Care Less

I think I read the most helpful article on my way in this morning.  Though the title of the article has escaped my mind, the content lingers and it's message rings true - to love more, care less.  This is something I think many people will benefit from following, yet caring is how humans are taught to express and/or reveal the depth of their love. 

From my understanding, I thought caring was an element of love, but truth is - the more you care, the less you are able to love.  Ideally, one isn't going in with such intentions, however that does very little to confirm the reality of it all.  Relationships with family, close friends and mates, typically exist on the foundation of unconditional love.  The constant care, expectations of a certain outcome and the desire to change a person, inherently changes the way you love.  Unconditional becomes conditional.

So I say to you, if you can love more and care less, is it worth caring more and loving less?  We all have concerns of others, especially the ones we love, but the burden that caring plays on both parties can sometimes cause more harm than help.

Today is the first day I'll exercise my human right to preserve my sanity - I care less, I love more!  Thanks O, The Oprah Magazine, for an insightful write-up.  With you, I'm simply one read away from shifting my thinking, broadening my knowledge and expanding my thoughts. 

Loving You More...
VJ

Smile Upon Today

Involved in everything going on, within my circumference. A surprising shake grabs hold of my attention, causing me to go beyond my circle to gain balance.  In this shift, I look up and catch the eye of a fellow New Yorker.  Perhaps this person wasn't born and bred, yet the years of living this city life has changed his face. 

Mean muggin'.  Yes, that's what some call it.  Expressions of anger, unhappiness plastered not only on this gentleman's face, but on this woman's face, the person next to her and the elderly woman next to him.  Why are we so mad?  The day has only progressed to the 8 o'clock hour, yet we have the worries of yesterday, the sorrows of tomorrow and the absence of today. 

The absence of today makes one decay.  If we turned our frowns upside-down, life may shine upon us.  Your next destination may not be your best destination, however this is what life calls for at the moment.  Take it. Accept it.  Embrace it.  Welcome it. 

Have a good day, today!

At Morning Rise I Close My Eyes

Each weekday morning rise feels like a slow death.  Yet, I peel back the covers and conjure up just enough strength to tap dance on the hardwood floors.  Sitting on the edge, of what sometimes feels like a ledge, I debate aborting the mission to crawl back into bed.

Acknowledging my thoughts, feelings, emotions... I can't help but wonder, who am I?  This spirit is very unlike the one I've always known.  However, it's one that has been present for quite some time.  I used to sleep like an angel and rise like the sun.  Who am I, now?  I rarely get a good night's sleep and it's quite unusual to open my eyes and fully welcome the sunrise.  Is this what depression feels like?  Is this what a lack of fulfillment looks like?  Is this what being stuck feels like?  Is this what stress looks like?  

While I can't quite pinpoint the exact emotion, I do know that my daytime agenda lacks curiosity.  It lacks luminosity.  It lacks growth, for I have come to know all I can here... But what do you do when something new hasn't arrived, (just yet)?  If the money didn't support my basic needs, this moment (here) would for sure be my last.  Should I take a big risk?  Should I sacrifice needs for happiness?  I tend to be the person who allows trouble to find me.  Today I want to initiate the first day of the rest of my life. 

Energy-less days have caused me to portray this corporation as a bloodsucking establishment, draining the energy out of my everyday life.  Thoughts of Friday, post 5:30 are brewing at 7 a.m., Monday morning.

I love life!  Is it fair to my well-being to rush through it, if only for the sake of making it through the workday?  Am I robbing my soul for financial console?  Can I make due with a savings come true?  I have all these thoughts of what can be done, yet my independent mindset doesn't find comfort in needing anything from anyone.  They say the worse thought of a wealthy man is being poor, and in a sense I get that. 

So what do I do???  I think it's time to call Daddy.  While the government bails out billion dollar financial institutions, I ponder who's ever there to bail out the individual.  The individual that has always held her own... 

Who's here for me?  Especially in a time when this bloodsucking establishment is hindering one from being free.  It's time to leave and just be.  GOD please save ME!    



It's Saturday!

To know the best wave of communication is that of written word, I pop my MacBook open and begin typing.  It's a Saturday evening and besides a store run, I've been indoors all day.  Of lately, I've been worried about making the most of my days... But today, today I am not concerned with the "what should I do" nor the "what I need to do."  Today, I'm enjoying the events of the day as they present themselves to me.

It's Saturday.  Enjoy beautiful world!!!